Saturday, September 24, 2005 ++

Faith... hrm i've just been doing some thinking.. there are so many things i need to do, but i do not seem to do them, most likely cause i am lazy and there always seems to be better things to do.. such as bumming ard, watching videos and playing computer games.. but i've not actually gained much from all these.. except fun and despair.. maybe it's come to an extent whereby i sem to have lost some faith in myself for doing things which i always thought that i was capable of doing.

Take driving for example.. its been dragging on since ages, but i've not touched my advanced theory book since like.. Wednesday? Was supposed to go for their theory trial test, but now till have not went.. Dad's angry and Mom's like.. " You always wanted to drive and now may even have a car already, but u don't even seem to be enthusiastic about it." Its the truth. Hrm.. What has become of me? I need to change.. to take to bus and not be lazy.. to move on instead of being stagnant.

I'm listening to Hans Zimmer.. great album (The wings of a film). If you love slower, great guitar tracks..(no singing).. then you are bound to Love this!! hahax gonna load it into my Zen micro. Yeah the music really gets me into the mood to think, like of ever-persistant issues.. help me move on.. someone.. please

Kel's games today were fun, i have to say.. cool man.. although the snort one was rather gross.. i could only smell candy for the next 2 hrs.. yupz i played bball today.. hope nothing happens to me..

I do not want to sleep.. wish i could just carry on.. won't that be nice? Ironically its one of the best things in life.. hahax jagged little pill

Complexity, its already 11.35 p.m.
11:35 PM

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hrm here i am.. with only 4 hrs of slp.. wake up liao.. why? got people coming my house to change ALL the windows.. sian 1/2.... that means that i have slp 10 hrs in 2 days.. not very gd.. PLUS.. swimming bad for my skin.. so now no slp + chlorine water = lotsa pimples.. DAMMIT...
hrm..

Last night's game between me and ivin V.S. tian en and nick was quite fun! hahax although we lost.. we had alot of fun.. cuz... i was.. GODLIKE.. =X i know t man sure to disagree.. but nvm... hahax..

FINAL FANTASY VII.. ADVERT CHILDREN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Woohoo.. that wonderful anime.. (My tifa and Aeris) has the BEST picture by far.. Tifa looks real too la! WHEE-Wheet! lolx.. and cloud... abit awful.. hahahhax but his fighting... Superb la.. I love it!

Okies i ended up hlping my mom use tape and newsppaper to seal my entire hse.. so stupid rite.. cant buy like a sheet of plastic... haiyo.. wad to do.. they so old school.. den every time got repairs need to do this.. BLEAHX

Okie later i'm gonna ON my music SOOOO LOUD so that the drilling wun disturb me...

Chowx 9.50 a.m.
9:50 PM

Wednesday, September 21, 2005 ++

lolx... goody goody.. i found out that i AM eligible for my 2 month reduction for my NS term.. which means that i serve for 1yr 10 mths =) Well.. that IS a reason to celebrate.. hahax but also not much means to do so.. hahahx.. 7th February 2007.. when will you come?!?!?!?!

Oh wells.. i'm officially a clerk.. gotta go for course.. 1 day course but okie la.. go then go.. see how's it like.. =)

Okie anyway not much has been happening.. to me.. that is.. to other people.. like alot la.. funny to hear wad ppl say on the phone.. ahhax (if you wondering why i'm so sian typing this.. just waitign for my friend to come my hse la so nth much to do =X) Hrm friday i'm on 1/2 day leave.. YAY! Can finally settle down abit and get my other LIFE in order.. lolx

Bring me to LIFE. Its 9.45 p.m.. where are u my friend.. zzz
9:45 PM

Monday, September 19, 2005 ++

hahax just came back from Roots.. havent been there for soo long.. hahax glad they remember me =) Lolx.. i like it there.. the atmosphere.. the people who cut hair.. the PEOPLE who wan to get their hair cut.. lolx.. i look like a student again..

Hrm my stomach has been giving me abit of trouble lately.. seems that i am still not exactly well.. easily get headaches and tummy will feel weird sometimes.. hai.. anywayz i've thought of my goals, at least to accomplish by this year..

1) Get my license.. Advance by end October, Pass my test by December =)
2) Start to do more.. as in.. in terms of action instead of procrastinating or being lazy.
3) Try to LOVE some people who i find it hard to
4) Finish a game of pool in 1 turn, better if i break-cue (I need min 3 now)
5) Tone down (haha wun tell you in what sense)

hrm so now all's left is action.. lolx hope my comp recovers too

8.22 p.m.
8:22 PM

Friday, September 16, 2005 ++

hahahx yes.. i'll promote ginger tea.. especially if you have wind and your stomach hurts so much you cant sleep despite taking medicine that makes you drowsy.. lolx.. finally managed to sleep for 2hrs.. barely enough la.. but its okie.. never been sick for so long b4.. 4 days already.. =(

Okie today asn't very productive, but what to do when i'm grouchy cuz of my pain (must be due to the marcoroni and cheese at kenny rigers last night =X timo dun hate me for saying this.. lolx) and tiredness.. i played 7 games of dota.. yeah.. den got 1 game i was so bored i keep suicide.. till my team all cant stand it all quit.. =D

hrm last night made me think abt many many things, abt wad my fellow leaders felt and all.. haven really seen it from their point of view.. but all the same.. its for the better! HAHA.. hope tonight there is no unwanted awkward tension between mike n me.. cuz i always scared he thinks i got sumthing against him.. *POP*

Hrm my bestie's not happy.. lalala.. just hope she makes the right chioce.. lolx.. takkaire wld ya.. *hugz*

Gonna bath =D 6.25 p.m.
6:25 PM

Wednesday, September 14, 2005 ++

Hrm that describes wad i was yesterday.. really sick.. literally.. woke up feeling nauseas.. wanna puke.. but still went to camp.. den i couldn even do much cuz my body was aching real bad.. had fever... (mom said symptoms are like dengue) den came home in a cab.. cuz couldn walk strainght.. den suddenly my fren called.. ask me whether i had the office keys with me(this key can access 70 other keys) and den i checked.. got lor.. damn sian.. i rushed down back to camp and rush back home.. i couldn even think straight la.. lucky my officers not in camp or else i sure tio like 7 extras.. hrm den go see doctor, doctor say its too early to go for blood test den he gimme 2 day mc ask me rest at home, see whether my fever persist.. hrm cant eat much, felt so bloated.. cant move ard.. cuz head will spin.. blah blah blah...

Dun wan describe le.. juz hope i'll get well soon.. i dunno wad to say.. juz blogging for the sake of doing so.. sian.. =X

9.22 a.m.
9:22 AM

Sunday, September 11, 2005 ++

yes.. its 3.. the number 3... there are 3.. =X

1's the oldest
2's the closest
3's the simplest.

What are we? Muahahaha..

And its all coming back to me.. again..

12.25 a.m.
12:25 AM

Thursday, September 08, 2005 ++

hahahax omg its super late!! see la.. gals always like to talk sooo much.. hahax anyway my mom's best fren juz came to visit all the way from Dubai la.. den she was advicing my dad n all about work there etc.. and then talk abt so many many things!!! lolx words of wisdom lor.. make me happy to hear her stories.. lolx... tmr i'll blog more la.. tmr still gotta go back to camp despite having MC..

Well.. some of the impt stuff (That is to me la):

1) I wanna marry a gal that would give up her career for the children.
2) I now wanna see all the things that she's experiencing in the emirates.
3) DO NOT BE FOOLED BY THE WESTERN PRESS, ESP ABT SADAM ETC.. cuz for such an evangelist to say stuff... hahax my oh my.. interesting!!!

ok and yeah wad she told me abt frens.. think i dunnnit say say here la.. those who knows will know.. lolx

NIGHTS
12:00 AM

Monday, September 05, 2005 ++

i dont know how to say this:

I really feel like crying, really, i'm already at the brink of tears.
I didnt even eat 1/8 of my dinner. No appetite, none at all.
Those close to me will know how much i hate changes,
and now my entire life's facade may be changed.
No friends, familliarity, routineness.....

On the other hand there is another possibility,
one more confident, but that will force me to level up all the way
I'm not felling exactly secure.

Bestie.. you almost guessed it right, although it was just a comment
i think you never really thought will happen.

Tian en and nick, sry i couldn't go for the gathering tonight la, but
now i at least know why i did not go.

I need to talk @ 7.48 p.m.
7:48 PM

Saturday, September 03, 2005 ++

Trust His Heart
Cynthia Clausen

All things work for our good
though sometimes we can't see how they could.
Struggles that break our hearts in two
sometimes blind us to the truth.
Our Father knows what's best for us;
His ways are not our own.
So, when your pathway grows dim,
and you just can't see Him,
Remember you're never alone.

God is too wise to be mistaken.
God is too good to be unkind.
So when you don't understand,
when you don't see His plan,
When you can't trace His hand,trust His heart.

He sees the Master plan.
He holds the future in His hands.
So don't live as those who have no hope.
All our hope is found in Him.
We see the present clearly,
but He sees the first and the last.
And like a tapestry,
He's weaving you and me to someday be just like Him

God is too wise to be mistaken.
God is too good to be unkind.
So when you don't understand,
when you don't see His plan,
When you can't trace His hand,trust His heart.

He alone is faithful and true.
He alone knows what is best for you.
So when you don't understand,
when you don't see His plan,
When you can't trace His hand, trust His heart.

~amen

picked this off from sophie's blog, let this be an encouragement to myself and to others.. amen..


10:08 PM

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my day:

army
book out at 12
cineleisure
met nino lover
walk walk
talk talk
gossip gossip
was called "weak" and "gay"
go see nice pink blouse
got present
go see ldrs
buy cake
eat super duper good indian cruisine
sing birthday song
see crowd at china black
SMU bash-no i juz saw the crowd
pool
snooked by nick
mustafa - first time in my life
buy buy shop shop see see
cab home
blog

=D

Bestie.. i love u for who u are.. =)

hahahax thanks for getting me the prezzies although here i so useless dint do much.. gomen nasai~ will do sumthing soon k? hahax

Tian en.. are u drunk liao? i certainly hoped u helped me take photos.. =X

hahax chowz.. tmr gonna see jimmy teach akido..


2.23 a.m.
2:23 AM

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