Saturday, February 26, 2005 ++

hai~ it happens on tv too...
Dear class.. we are going to learn about sentences:

Some people seemed to be spared.
Others dun get that chance.
Its in the glory where trouble hates.
And it comes with overwhelming blows.
Music dosent heal the soul.
It just provides tempoary medication.
They say that there's always a solution.
That i cannot disagree.
But there's no perfect solution.
Nothing is perfect.
People can press the reset button.
But they cant forget what happened.
Memories are drugs.
They're worse than heroin.
It lingers on.
The feeling of crave.
Why does it always pull me back.
Back into that thirst again.
In all that searching.
There's no perfect peace.
Humans i dont fully comprehend
He's ways are higher than mine.
Betrayal, envy.
Anyone?

hehez yesterday was FUN! majong food.. mopre food.. x box.. lolx.... Wednesday steamboat and next wednesday sakura.. the list goes on.. stanley called me ask me extend till term ends.. hai~ sometimes really feel like taking a break.. sophie says exam results rumored to be coming out on friday.. argh.. eye candy..... *melts* alrights.. judo still rox!
4:20 AM

Thursday, February 24, 2005 ++

woohoO! finally learnt how to use ippon the right way.. ahah its actually really effective.. with zhao jie's guidance.. haha thankew!! hrm anywayz hven blogged since sunday.. and my week's been abt trng and teaching and learning lotsa new stuff!! has been intersting.. haha okies i actually ahve alot to say but nvm.. gotta teach wl tmr.. need to slp! hai~

Off to watch koga!

Went to count @ 09.40p.m.
9:40 PM

Sunday, February 20, 2005 ++

Argh.. its already 10 plus.. hafta faster blog den go sleep.. haha ppl may not understand wad i'm saying.. but since its my blog.. i'll juz put some tots into gibberish english..

I had alot to say.. watched that movie (see title) for dtc class today.. great show.. great cuz i could really see myself in that situations.. got me thinking.. alot.................
Hrm.. communication.. perserverence.. anger.. regret.. envy.. humbleness.. tears.. sorrow.. the fact is.. we are the ones who cuz us to get into these kinda troubles.. but it juz shows that we're human. These are the scenes i remember most..
There's this scence whereby ben(bruce willis) goes to apologise to Michelle Pfieffer (forgot her name in the show) at her house and.. he sees another guy there after he blurts out his apology due to memories and lashes of anger.. talk about sincerity having a door slammed in your face..
The result.. what i expected.. beyond sorrow: Refrain from contact, hide in a corner, tell yourself there is nothing i can do already. Hope is lost.
Next, the scenes whereby there is a strange awkwardness whenever both the couple sit in the car. My thoughts.. [there's so much i wanna say, but no words can come out. I dunno where to start.. ] Why is this like that??? The psycology of the human mind? Furthermore.. all fun/normal comfortable conversations cease to take place.. ALL thats on their minds are either how to resolve this or "i'm still angry".. Talk abt familarity.
Most of the time we stare into blank space wondering why that has occured.. and think IF the other person wasn't like this or IF the person wasn't like that.. it would have been so good.. etc.. But i'm beginning to realise the importance of that.. although blinded and thinking that we are always right.. We truely see wad has went wrong and the fact is that we have to deal with the crux.. being nice or shallow wun help at all.. perhaps tempoarily.. which sadly is shorter than SHorT.
However.. there's communication (still on the movie) which i felt was the key.. the blurt after the hold.. like a dam being released to the sweetest replay of honeymoon. All this is possible because of hope. Dont we all as humans hope all the time.. Even if we did badly in exams.. we say.. if only we studied harder and imagine getting good results.. why?! because we still hope for the good. Ultimately.. hope is what we hang on to.. and its so darn impt isn't it? hrm..
Many people tell me that its after that 1 HUGE fight that things get much better.. i've seen it so many times and the thesis is correct.. BUT.. many do fail because of that same HUGE fight.. why the difference between the two results?? Character? Forgiveness?? I need more wisdom on this..

haha okie guess all my other thoughts shouldnt be written here.. i've had an interesting week thought.. highlights include Shabu-Shabu.. yUM~~~~ Pauline's house warming.. great laksa!! Judo on thursday (except for the part where my face was dragged on the tatami).. Leader's meeting where we shared thoughts abt each other.. tuition at amk library.. church!! yupz.. i have sooooo much to say for each one of them.. but its geting soo late le.. haha TIAN EN!! Send me those photos at shabu~ k? haha more sake next rnd!!

When/Where is i in us?

Went to count @ 10.35 p.m.
10:35 PM

Tuesday, February 15, 2005 ++

hrm.. realized my blog's been dead recently.. haha.. cny was rather alright for me.. as usual my ang pow money's little and my weight's the only thing that has increased.. haha this yr's the first year, however that i decided to go talk to my uncles instead of playing ard with the smaller kids.. although i still did.. and amazingly.. it turned out to be quite fun.. haha though their topics can be rather dull =X

hrm i juz woke up.. dunno wad to say.. V day was okie.. so funny~~ i went town to meet my frens.. supposed to be cheryl but huishan, he jia and err.. "shifu" oso went.. lolx! (town was super crowded).. so walked ard town loking for a place to eat and of cuz.. couldn find one.. so ended up helping my fren shop.. haha "i'm a good shopper!" So.. with the long queues etc.. i decided we shld go to serangoon gardens.. their cafe cartel is good!~! So.. cabbed down.. and finally reched there.. den ah.. we ordered liao sit down happily wait for food to come lor.. haha so 10 mins pass.. 20 mins pass.. still no food.. 30 mins pass.. my stomach's growling like siao le.. 40 mins... WAITER!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHERE"S MY FOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha the poor waiter so scared liddat.. den he whispered.." the kitchen exploded.. so pls.. u might get a refund from the counter" WTH!!! hai so already 10pm le.. collect refund. had free drink.. lolx but too bad shared drink.. so not as much merit.. hehehz so at this hour.. in the end go chomp shomp eat!! lolx their stingray's ZHAI!! lolx.. but i ate too much i think.. =)

hrm okie la.. dun wan to talk abt school.. HAVE to force my self go for driving this week.. else ah.. all the money gone le.. hrm.. okie dokie.. i need go toilet..

Went to count @ 5.25 p.m.
5:25 PM

Tuesday, February 08, 2005 ++

heyz haha i'm long... way to long.. and too big..
1) My heart's biger than it should be
2) My lungs are slighly bigger to accomodate the biogger heart
3) My intestines are longer than an odinary human
4) i'm known to haf long arms and legs

haha interesting facts i confirmed abt myself.. hai~ i'm wierd arn't i.. so this shouldn come as any surprise.

hrm okie school has been alright.. fun.. playin with the kids.. love relieving the sec 1 classes.. talk to them abt maple story.. get items for the game et.. lolx kills time ReAl fast! hehz anyway this level 60 sec 1 promised me 100,000mesos and 10 refined steel.. haha yeah go on and get jealous!! hehez anyawy cny's coming so i guess i'll be kinda busy.. yesterday and today i managed to catch 4 movies!! woohoo!! 2 at home and 2 as balestia and ps.. hrm watched "The gal next door" and "naked weapon" and the recent "Flight of the phoenix" and "Fighter in the WinD!" in the theatres.. hahat he gal from fighter in teh wind is soo chio.. *melts* haha but in the show she's a geisha..

hrm okok cant wait for my cuzzins to arrive tmr.. hope to haf lots of fun!! we;;.. tonight's my first nigh in a loooonnngggg llooooonnng time where i can stay up late cuz there's no sch for me tmr!!! yay!! so guess i wun be sleeping!! hahaha.. no irritating 4N2 tmr!!!

well stupid me accidentally deleted my maple story and so.. now have to re-install ALL the patches!! its takign DAMN long!!!!!!! Even bestioe wans to smash my comp! hahaha okies.. guess i'll juz wish everyone HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!

Went to count @ 2.05 a.m.
2:05 AM

Wednesday, February 02, 2005 ++

hrm.. if it was 2004, i'll prob be so happy.. but haha right now.. juz a smile would be enuff i guess.. hehez *releases a deep breath of air* welll.. i juz can write wad happened here.. but it certainly cheered me up! =) Thank U!!!!

hrm ok today was... boring in school.. had like 5 free periods.. i have no laptop, only a desk, a pen, and homewok which i have already marked some time ago.. yupz.. spent some time msging.. went to eat twice.. within 4 hrs.. man i'm puting on weight.. seriously.. wad am i doin'!!! hrm for the periods teaching 3E1.. as usual.. v fun!! haha but today teach 3N1.. i wanna give up le.. these ppl.. hai~ dunno how to describe.. so ended up giving them a lecture.. long one.. lecture them still got ppl sleep.. i wanna go slap them or somethign.. lolx ok not that violent..=X

hrm went home and played maple story.. haha dint go out in the end =( looks like next week cant too =(=( =( haha okok but maple story was fun.. played wif weilyn den help her collect all the blubbles. haha quite fun.. den she taught me alot of quest etc.. hehez arigartou!! Anywayz maple is having its usual irritating patch updates now.. so cant play.. haha nvm...

hrm oh ya i went to buy indonesian rice for me and my bro for dinner.. den eat finish le.. my dad came home with INDONESIAN ASAM FISH.. wa.. taste like the best penang laksa!! got pineapple.. tomato etc.. whee~ i had to cook la.. and my dad kept asking when's it gonna be ready so.. when he tried to help..... u can guess la.. disaster!!! he carry the fish.. drip all the gravy on the floor and its sticky all over!! grr.. stil make me clean.. haha den i told hi the pot is too small to fit the entire fish plus the generous portions of asam.. (3 fishes and 2 litres of pineapple asam for only 14 bucks!!) but he say can.. in the end fill the pot right to the brim.. he smiles happily and says.. see.. told u can.. den.. i shake my head and say.. u stand here and see wad happens.. so he nth to do juz stand there lor.. haha when the asam boils... haha man wad a mess.. think i no need to say u oso noe wad happenes.. lolz well.. this reminds me of wad my hod told me.. " God told me i'll hae to work with stubborn people, but i didn't noe it'll be this stubborn"
haha ok la he's too wise at other times.. anyway the asam was soo good.. haha

okies.. last episode of charmed is gonna start.. i write too much le i think.. haha alrightz i wanna go for judo... hai~~~~~

Went to count @ 8.30 p.m.
8:30 PM

Tuesday, February 01, 2005 ++

I dunno wad to say,
I dunno what to do.
I feel like an idiot,
In a sea of blue.
I dunno why all this fate,
but now i think its too late.
Dun catch me on my tail again,
For i'll juz yell out in vain.

Who am i u may ask,
A loner on the dishearthened soul?
Whats my purpose in this life,
Hurt, Jealousy, Love i dive.
Wandering unknown, swept about,
ever changing, in this bout.
Created by him his purpose new,
Never to be left on the pew.

If not for him, here i die,
In the emptyness with a sigh.
But in him my strength renew,
Transforming me, purity revealed.
I'll lifen up and shake dis hands,
Give Joel to his wonderful plan.
Then i'll know all i've done,
Is all cuz of HIS son.

Who am i??........................

Dunno why i'm writing a peom.. i suck at peoms but nvm.. dejavu.. dejavu.. dejavu.....

Went to count @ 7.20 p.m.
7:20 PM

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